i don't know what to do now..
at first thinking of uploading pictures, but now i don't have to mood to.
don't know what to say..
listen to music is useless.. watching show is useless.. sleeping is useless..
my house de baby is very noisy.. making my mood worse.. and yesterday argue with that person.. and is like yah i'm a heartless person.. they are my puppets can? ask me treat you as one, you also what. what ever it is i'm not worth your respect and i'm not worth other people respect.. that's what i think yah. PUI! even if i respect them, will i gt back? i have been through many things than you.. many PATHETIC things which makes my world PATHETIC now! ALL I KNOW IS THAT, IF A DESIGNER IS SOFT-HEARTED, HE/SHE WILL NEVER BECOME FAMOUS AND IF YOU LOOK AROUND ALL THE DESIGNERS, ALL OF THEM ARE HARD-HEARTED. SO I'M TRYING TO LEARN LIKE THEM, ALTHOUGH I KNOW IT IS A WRONG WAY. BUT I STILL WANT, COS I'M TOO SOFT-HEARTED. I MUST BE STRONG! AND I WILL BE STRONG!
okay i don't know what i'm doing.. i am here to say out all my anger.. just a sudden you come say all these, i thought should be i tell you all that.. cos you yourself is like more complicated than me.. or i can say that all the people besides me are complicated. i just don't want get so complicated, so i decides to leave all of them.. i really don't want care how many people are left with me.. all i know i will be just knowing new friends and who knows that out of the new friends, i found better one than now? cos i know i found them because God knows that i need new people to help me and they are helping me.
anyway mou ren, i still have to say sorry to you.. i know you try to help me to think positive, but i just can't as everything turns up the same to me.. i think i'm too stubborn to really see the world.. but all i want now is the world to stop and let me breather properly.. perhaps if i go to the sea and have some sea breeze will be better? like in the past what i did.. maybe i will feel better.. but i will try to do what suggestions you gave me de. cos i don't feel like dissapointing any people.. like my laopo. i try to do what she wants.. cos i know you all want me to be happy and think positive.. (= but still i'm sorry, and thank you..
PEOPLE, LOOK CAREFULLY THIS..
I'M TIRED OF WAITING..
I'M TIRED OF ANSWERING..
I'M TIRED OF SEEING..
I'M TIRED OF LISTENING TO YOUR FAKE STORIES..
I'M TIRED OF DOING THINGS FOR YOU PEOPLE..
I'M TIRED OF BEING TOO SOFT-HEARTED..
I'M TIRED OF YOUR LIES..
I'M TIRED OF YOU ALL BACK-STABBING ME..
I'M TIRED OF EVERYTHING..
DON'T FORCE ME TO LIST ALL YOUR NAMES DOWN HERE. YOU ALL SHOULD KNOW I DARE. I WILL MAKE SURE ALL OF YOU PEOPLE NAME WILL BE BLACK LISTED. ESPECIALLY FROM MY WORLD.. IN THE SATART MY WORLD HAVE AROUND 500+ PEOPLE.. EACH DAY AROUND 2-5 PEOPLE ARE LEAVING.. NOW I ONLY HAVE MY FAMILY, 2 MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE AND AROUND 30 PEOPLE LEFT.. I FEELS GREAT WHEN PEOPLE ARE LEAVING.. COS I KNOW ALL THESE PEOPLE ARE USELESS.. ONCE A PUPPET IS SPOIL, YOU CAN'T CONTROL IT.. SO MIGHT AS WELL THROW THEM AWAY.. AND IF THEY CHOSE TO LEAVE THEMSELVES, I WELCOME THEM TO LEAVE.. COS I WANT TO CLEAR MY CONTACTS NOW! IF YOU WANT TO LEAVE. JUST TAG ON THE TAG BOARD SAYING YOU WANT TO LEAVE. I WILL LET YOU GO.. COS THE LESSER PEOPLE I KNOW, THE BETTER FOR ME.. COS ALL THE BURDEN IS GONE.. FOREVER.. GETTING TO RECEIVED SOME PEOPLE SAYING THEY WANTED TO LEAVE.. OKAY WELL THEN BYE.. I WILL NOT SEE YOU ANYMORE.. JUST LIKE A NORMAL STRANGER.. IT WILL BE EASIER TO MAINTAIN A RELATIOSHIP WITH 30+PEOPLE THAN 500+ PEOPLE RIGHT?
