CRYSTAL'S blog..

Monday, June 11, 2007

can someone knock on my head and let me die?
i don't even know why i still CARE about it!?!?
my mouth keep repeating that i don't care but I STILL CARE!!
why must i care about all these anymore?
you already stop caring, so i shall not care anymore too?
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!! I CAN'T!!! FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE CAN!!
NEVER APPEAR IN FRONT OF ME ANYMORE CAN!!
I THOUGHT THAT WITH A NEW HAIRSTYLE NEW LIFE.
ALTHOUGH A LOT OF PEOPLE DIDN'T RECOGNIZED ME,
BUT YOU JUST KEEP APPEARING, PLEASE GET LOST!!!!

FUCK.. I JUST LISTEN TO SOME ASS SINGING CYNDI'S 爱的天灵灵.
IT SOUNDS SO HORRIBLE. THE VOICE SUCKS A LOT.. AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF YOU REALLY DON'T CARE, THEN DON'T CARE.
SO DO I!! I REALLY DON'T WANT CARE ANYMORE!!!

FUCK WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Written by; CRYSTAL
7:56 PM;

I CUT MY HAIR SHORT!!

i was like yesterday went out with family to dinner and walk past city plaza. on the first floor there is this saloon, where my mum's friend work in. she work there from 10+ years, wonderful right? so i was like wanting to cut hair weeks ago, yet don't know what to cut. so i tell my mum why not ask her to help me cut. so my mum say okay, then was like dicussing what to cut. cos i have no idea, just tell her you think which kind suits me. so she say bog is nice, and i was like isn't it my dear HEBE de hair style? i actually can't imagine how i will look like but the outcome looks okay. and i got a tail behind. haha. much special. this lady is actually a 房客 when i was 6 years old and she told me is the first time to help me cut my hair and i was o.0. so she took 30+ mins to cut my hair slowly and after me she help my sister to trim her hair ( xiuling, she cut her fringe le.) which looks better and took another 30+ mins. after my sister, is like the time is 8.30+ just the time for her to go home. our timing is very zun ar. ha ha. bill time, we just look at our father and he paid for it. I SAVE MY MONEY MAN!

then my sister want go buy clothes as father give us each S$50 to buy clothes and i spend S$40 on a new mp3. my mum was saying handphone got le why still buy and i say later keep charging hp then you scold and it will make my phone spoil if i everytime charge. so my father was trying to find clothes for me as he see like i never buy ( means he want to fork out the money for me to buy lehs.. but sad, none of the clothes i like). anyway save up his money for better things, i still got S$10 to save up for better things.

anyway i'm still tired, really tired. i already said before that treat me good i treat you good; treat me bad, i treat you bad. that's my theory okays. i know it is impossible for people treating me good when i treat them good, but why do i always have to be the one treating them good first? do you think that telling them will be able to solve out? i know you will say that you never tell how we know, but if i know that saying out will make it worse. i rather be the one suffering all alone. understand? it is the logic. anyway i already said that i don't want to care anymore. so i think you also don't have to care, look at the past and now. i know that now, it seems to be better. walking in two different ways is the best.
i'm getting not to know you anymore.

some secrets can be kept, some can be said.
我可以像徐宜靜,有很多可怕的祕密.
也可以像徐宜真,只有些祕密.

Written by; CRYSTAL
10:42 AM;